Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Enneagram Test



found this test randomly, I'm Type 4 - The Individualist.
there are 9 categories in total, click here if you want to know which type are you. damn accurate I tell you, go do the test and leave a comment to tell me which type you are ok!

Chinese version: 九型人格
My type: 第四型人格

Identity seekers, who feel unique and different 

People of this personality type tend to build their identities around their perception of themselves as being somehow different or unique; they are thus self-consciously individualistic. Fours tend to see their difference from others as being both a gift and a curse - a gift, because it sets them apart from those they perceive as being somehow "common," and a curse, as it so often seems to separate them from the simpler forms of happiness that others so readily seem to enjoy. Thus, Fours can manage to feel superior to others while also secretly harboring some degree of longing and envy. A feeling of being a member of the "true aristocracy" alternates with deep feelings of shame, and fears of somehow being deeply flawed or defective.
Fours are emotionally complex and highly sensitive. They long to be understood and appreciated for their authentic selves, but easily feel misunderstood and unappreciated. They have a tendency to withdraw in the face of a world that seems harsh or crude, and are often somewhat moody or temperamental. They are emotionally centered and spend much of their lives immersed in their internal mental landscapes, where they feel free to cultivate and analyze their feelings. A desire to manifest this internal world often leads Fours to an interest in the arts, and some do become actual artists. (hope so) Whether artistic or not, however, most Fours are aesthetically sensitive and concerned with self-expression and self-revelation, whether it be in the clothes they wear or in the overall nature of their often idiosyncratic lifestyles.
Fours are somewhat melancholic by disposition, and under stress tend to lapse into depression. They also tend to be self-absorbed, even under the best of circumstances, but when unbalanced, easily give way to a self-indulgence which they perceive as being fully justified as a way to compensate for the general lack of pleasure they experience in their lives. Rather than look for practical solutions to their difficulties, Fours are prone to fantasizing about a savior who will rescue them from their unhappiness. (yayaya absolutely! what a dreamer I am)
Intellectual Fours tend to mistakenly type themselves as Fives - "The Investigator - Thinkers who tend to withdraw and observe", (ya exactly!!! read the *Type Five if you have extra time in your hand, half of the description = me!) and a heavy wing can certainly exacerbate this tendency*. Fours however, unlike Fives, tend to be self-revealing and comfortable with emotional expression.

why can't you take me



goosebumps. powerful. trackback to thatgirlcynthia.com

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

one two

12月 2009年的11个月过去了 那么的飞速
还没到月尾 所以暂且没有回顾2009
只想说 想在2009年过完之前 也就是剩下的这一个月里
让自己变得更勇敢 让想法转变成行动
一直以来都有很多东西想做 但就只局限于想
只会纸上谈兵啊我 快快快 做做做

当你在解决别人的问题时 其实你也是在回顾你自己的过往
看看哪些是你有做到的 哪些是跟对方的问题一样
然后哪些是你有的幸福 哪些是可以学习的幸福
这样人生才会一直不停的转动 幸福列车也才会一直以适当的速度往前开

没去到绿野仙踪的书香书展 是我的遗憾
很想要看很多很多的书 来把自己的灵魂掏空 再重新灌满
人生就是一直不断的重复 就看你如何让它重复地有意义
生命的齿轮如何转动 全在你的手中

fail educator

as a vice headmistress, a senior educator in the high fame independent high school, don't she know what is suppose and suppose not to say?! shame on her! PUI!

story begin :-

my sis is a holdover under the 'exclusive' rule of independent high school. yea so maybe her result is not good, but doesn't mean that her personality is not good as well. on the last day of her Senior Year 1, it's the day where all the students (except for Junior Year 3 and Senior Year 3) collect their result books from class teacher. then suddenly the wicked vice headmistress went into my sis class and being her wicked self. then in the middle of her wicked time, another teacher came to find my sis so my sis went out the class for a while, under the authorization of the wicked one. afterward my sis went back to the class and then she kena from the wicked one. the reason? the wicked one claimed that my sis didn't knock the door before enter the class. WHAT?! she saw my sis went out ok! and this is not her class! ok so maybe my sis should do it, but it's not that big deal till the wicked one summoned my sis to her room and scolded her and then my sis sure dissatisfied then answered her back a bit (cuz the wicked one is being too unreasonable already! she looked down on my sis just because my sis is a holdover. wtf!) then the wicked one detained her result book! like how can?! it's last day of school already for god sake! she detained the result book then? my sis has to take it next year?! or purposely want my parent go back to school to take the result book during school holiday?!

my sis was damn angry that time she wanted to go back to school and go against the wicked one, but my parent and I told my sis not to do this cuz the wicked one is vice headmistress got power one and my sis is only a powerless student, sure cannot win one. then my sis has to suppress her anger and unjust treatment. manatau just now I read my sis's blog and instantly I'm on fire!!!

講到回學校,
我今天就有順便去找馮副校長拿回我的成績冊。(school holiday already)

明明錯的就是她,就是她,
但我一進校長室就得吃她一大堆臉色,
好像一副就是我的錯的樣子。
我以為過了那么多個禮拜她會比較沒有那么計較那天上課最后一天所發生的事,

她竟然還特地去找完我今年的科任老師來調查我平時的德性
幸好我的科任老師都有告訴她說我平時都蠻彬彬有禮。
盧了有夠久后,她才把愿意成績冊還給我。

她還鄙視我姐姐哥哥沒有繼續深造,
只是做了翻譯員和髮型師。

等等

對我而言,她是一個很不稱職沒有禮貌的副校長。
translated: talking about back to school, I went to find the vice headmistress to get back my result book. she's the one who did wrong, it's her, but why should I deserve the shit face from her when I entered her room? it's like I'm the one who did something wrong. I thought she will let go of what happened on the last day of school after so many weeks but she didn't. Can't believe that she purposely talked to all my teachers who taught me other subjects to investigate my usual attitude and personality. Luckily all my teachers gave positive comments about me, and she finally returned the result book to me without supportive points on her side. you know what, she even despised my sister and brother because they didn't further studies and work as a translator and hair stylist respectively. she is such an incompetent and rude vice headmistress for me.

CAN YOU SEE WHAT SHE SAID?! CAN YOU SEE THAT?! 凸凸凸凸凸凸!!!

I commented this in my sis's blog: (rude but yea, I'm damn angry till I almost pound the office table)
walao gan-ni-nia eh f her la! 什么没有继续深造?!关她屁事啊!大学毕业出来还不够啊!难道要读到硕士博士才叫有深造?!有没有脑的哦?!翻译员很cheap咩现在?! 没有翻译员他们这些没有脑的cheap货会明白不是华语/他们不明白的语言的电影/电视剧/书本?!没有翻译员他们就变成井底之蛙啦fuck!副校长 wo,这样的话都讲的出来?!头脑长草啊?!难道做副校长很厉害啊?cheap精!有本事就去做校长啦!PUI!
translated: walao gan-ni-nia eh f her la! what's wrong with no further study?! it's not her fking business! me as the degree holder, completed my 3 years degree course in university, isn't that enough? does she mean that by further study = everyone has to study till the level of Master and PhD?! does she even has a brain?! work as a translator very low class?! without translator how the f do the brainless people like her to understand the content of movie/drama/book in foreign language?! without translator she will know nothing out of her language understanding area! is this how a vice headmistress should act?! brain grow grass ar?! witch! if you are that smart and capable then why aren't you the headmistress now? PUI!

seriously, I don't give a fuck that someone from the administration read this, they should know about this! as a vice headmistress, she insulted her student, she insulted her student's siblings, she insulted my educational background and my job, she insulted the educational system in Chinese school, she insulted translator and hair stylist!!! without translator, how the f she can watch foreign movie/drama and read foreign book?! she translate herself?! go be translator la! without hair stylist who the f cut her witch-y hair?! she cut herself ar?! bullshit. PUI!

Monday, November 30, 2009

I’m a Sherlock Holmes in the Making






found it found it!!! the mystery Sherlock Holmes image @ kyspeaks.com!

thank you Nuffnang for giving out another movie premiere tickets! this time is one of the most anticipating movie of the year - Sherlock Holmes starring by Robert Pattinson Downey Jr. and super sexy Jude Law!!! *drools* weee I want to win the premiere tickets because this movie is so nice so geng! and my bf loves it! he even bought the book to read. he's looking forward this movie for sooo long so I must win the premiere tickets for him as xmas gift! <3



if I successfully win the tickets then I'll be watching it 2 days before the release date which is on Christmas Eve @  TGV One Utama.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

sunshine saturday



long weekend 的第二天,无聊的星期六,男友去了马六甲,女友去了 tanjung malim, seremban, sabah, 要不然就是很难叫出来的,所以这么一个星期六,我又呆在家了。

在家里,除了上网,就是追偶像剧,要不然就是听听音乐,看看书,扫扫地,想要出门骑个脚车,却找不到伴,也很懒惰找。天气不算太热,太阳却也非常耀眼。噢对了,最近这几天没下雨了,有些人很高兴,我却有点沮丧,因为我喜欢雨天。不能再穿上外套了,因为会热死;晚上不能把风扇调到2号了,因为会汗湿床单;就连简单的坐着上网,也会感觉到闷热,唯有心不甘情不愿的调开空调,让无情的冷气吹干我的皮肤,让后突然感觉到很冷之后再跳起来把空调关掉,真是麻烦。

最近有几个人都说喜欢看我的部落格,说真的很惊喜也很高兴,想不到我写的东西也会找到知音人。如果大家喜欢的话,请留个言好吗?多短都可以,至少也让我了解你们的想法与故事。写东西不就是这样的吗,你告诉别人你的故事,说故事的人当然也非常乐意听他人诉说他们的故事。来来往往,无限的交集,完美的故事就是这样编织而来的。说真的,华语是我的强项,虽然我喜欢英语。用华语表达出来的心情,更加入味,更加细腻。但是却福利不到看不懂华语的朋友们,真是对不起。我非常能明白想要看却看不明的感觉,所以我想我应该会尽量把重要的也翻译成英语。也许英语不太能表达我要说的东西,至少我尝试努力过,也顺便可以 polish 我英语能力呀。别忘了我是个翻译员呢,虽然翻译的不怎么样。

对了,忘了说,在这么一个没下雨又无所事事的星期六,突然很想为自己找多几个兴趣,让我在闲暇的时候能润一下空虚的心灵。拼图,盆栽,骑脚车,写作,不错吧?有谁要参与呢?其实我最想要做的是画画,总觉得画画最能直接表达心中的影像,美的丑的喜的悲的雀跃的沮丧的,水彩木笔蜡笔铅笔油墨废纸又或者是不同的素材原料,只要有画笔画纸在手上,you can paint the world,所有的东西都能在画笔下被赋予色彩与生命,就像人生一样。只不过,我一生下来就缺少了画画的细胞,也可以说是我并不是一个艺术人,想要却也无能为力做不到,我能力所能做到的,顶多就是个用几条线条画出来的骨干火柴人。



Listening: Fish Leong 梁静茹

真的很喜欢她的声音和她所唱出的爱情故事。一直以来都很喜欢她的歌,只不过前阵子被人说听梁静茹很肤浅因为她的歌很商业化,每个人都在听,会听音乐不会听音乐的都在听她的歌,所以我为了避免给人说我肤浅,就不怎么听她的歌了。但最近看着败犬女王,静茹的歌又再次触动我的心弦。不管了,我就是喜欢听她的歌,她的声音就是那么的有魔力,流行情歌又怎样?听音乐就是要听自己喜欢的,适合自己的,不是吗?才发现,肤浅的其实是自己。原来我也会在意别人的看法啊。



this picture is so Forks, isn't it? :D


hmm, I'll translate this entry later. 

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

cotton candy



原来被一个人呵护爱着的感觉是那么的棒 仿佛置身于天堂一样
远远的就看到他走着过来 嘴角不自觉的往上扬
他微笑着站在我的眼前 我轻轻的向前挽着他那结实的手臂 心也跟着踏实了下来
感激他为了我而把重要的事情挪后 感激他总是为了我而竭尽所能的塞着来谷中城
喜欢他把我总是吃不完的食物塞进他的肚子里 虽然他一直要减肥
喜欢他替我 voice out 我不敢说的不满 这样的互补着彼此
一起吃着冰淇淋 看他舍不得的小口小口品尝着 lime sorbet 而我却大口大口的沉浸在 cotton candy 的甜蜜之中 偶尔贪婪的张开我的獠牙(?)把他的那一口给吃掉 虽然那是他爱吃的 他也让着我
疼爱我的想要请我喝我一直念念不忘的 starbucks frappucino 只因知道我很喜欢却又不舍得买来喝 最后我拒绝了他 想要保留到下次
砸钱买了那套 Twilight Notebook Tin Set 送我 虽然很不值得 但就为了我这个avid fans
明明就没有很想去槟城 这个月内也出城了好多次 其实最想要留在家里休息 顺便让可怜的钱包休息 但因为爱 而决定陪着我 吵了个小架 只因为担心我不能尽兴 亲爱的 真的我不介意 你也知道我是个容易满足的小女人 只要有你在我身旁 加上我最亲的好友 这个旅途 简直就是幸福列车 :)



开始觉得我很=.=了是吗?连续几篇的肉麻炮轰,一直在晒命。NO 我不是在晒命,只是想要把幸福的时刻给记录下来,才能在我不开心的时候有足够的配方来医病啊。事实上,我天生就是个充满浪漫基因的小女人,却一直把它隐藏起来,就怕给别人说坏话,但现在也看透了,无所谓啊,我就是我,要是你们不喜欢觉得很恶心的话,大可以不看。oh btw,我也是个超级无敌胆小心脏很小一颗的人,怕死怕痛怕打怕鬼怕血腥怕刺激,叫我老人家好了。